<< i wish i didn’t love you or maybe loved you much more. >>
years ago, i shared this beautifully unembellished and candid clip with a lover of mine. he was handsome, intellectually curious, and ever so dark in temperament. i met him just before i was set to move abroad. given the imminent departure, i wanted either to be rid of my feelings for him altogether, or to be so certain that there was no denying them. the latter superseded my rationality and reluctance.